Honesty

Honesty is a difficult thing for some people to do. When I was a little boy I can remember times being dishonest when I was a afraid of being hurt. When I turned away from the darkness I decided not to fear anymore, when I released that fear I decided to be honest. Sometimes honesty hurts others sometimes honesty hurts ourselves. But I'd rather have the truth in my life than a false sense of love and security.
Friendships are nothing if honesty is not the foundation. Now that I encompass half  my life  outside of Hollywood honesty is ever more present. If I'm going to have friends they need to accept all parts of me the funny, serious the gentle and brutally truthful, these parts are all the sums of me.

I will be the first to admit that I have horrible trust issues one of my biggest faults the flip side of that is once I let someone in my heart they have all of it. once I give someone my heart takes a lot for me to not second-guess actions, motives etc. this I am constantly battling, God will be the only ones to be able to lift it from me forever. One thing I do have is tremendous loyalty I will go to the sword for anyone I believe in and for those who I feel responsible for. Responsibility is a tricky thing when you're somebody's friend there is a level of responsibility that comes with that, you are responsible for safeguarding them in whatever way humanly possible and trusting them having faith in them and letting your guard down with them. This is tremendously difficult but worth it.


In LA there's so much competition to be the next big thing so many people are going for the same brass ring its unbelievable. You might have uniqueness someone might think they have more to offer than you. So this fear creeps into your heart and you want to protect what's yours because you know that there's somebody just waiting for you not to be pro active enough  and figure it out before you. The truth is nobody can take anything that is meant for you.  In comes faith and trust like gentle hands on your shoulders. We must believe in something greater than ourselves to carry us through.


That being said we must never let reality slip out from under us. The universe will manifest whatever our dreams desire but not at the cost of others or ourselves. It is wonderful to have belief in something but  over zealousness without the temperance of reality will leave us so hungry that we will do anything to crunch our appetites. The key is to find the balance and honest loyalty between a friendship and our wildest dreams. True friendship is everlasting and some say dreams are fleeting.