Honesty

Honesty is a difficult thing for some people to do. When I was a little boy I can remember times being dishonest when I was a afraid of being hurt. When I turned away from the darkness I decided not to fear anymore, when I released that fear I decided to be honest. Sometimes honesty hurts others sometimes honesty hurts ourselves. But I'd rather have the truth in my life than a false sense of love and security.
Friendships are nothing if honesty is not the foundation. Now that I encompass half  my life  outside of Hollywood honesty is ever more present. If I'm going to have friends they need to accept all parts of me the funny, serious the gentle and brutally truthful, these parts are all the sums of me.

I will be the first to admit that I have horrible trust issues one of my biggest faults the flip side of that is once I let someone in my heart they have all of it. once I give someone my heart takes a lot for me to not second-guess actions, motives etc. this I am constantly battling, God will be the only ones to be able to lift it from me forever. One thing I do have is tremendous loyalty I will go to the sword for anyone I believe in and for those who I feel responsible for. Responsibility is a tricky thing when you're somebody's friend there is a level of responsibility that comes with that, you are responsible for safeguarding them in whatever way humanly possible and trusting them having faith in them and letting your guard down with them. This is tremendously difficult but worth it.


In LA there's so much competition to be the next big thing so many people are going for the same brass ring its unbelievable. You might have uniqueness someone might think they have more to offer than you. So this fear creeps into your heart and you want to protect what's yours because you know that there's somebody just waiting for you not to be pro active enough  and figure it out before you. The truth is nobody can take anything that is meant for you.  In comes faith and trust like gentle hands on your shoulders. We must believe in something greater than ourselves to carry us through.


That being said we must never let reality slip out from under us. The universe will manifest whatever our dreams desire but not at the cost of others or ourselves. It is wonderful to have belief in something but  over zealousness without the temperance of reality will leave us so hungry that we will do anything to crunch our appetites. The key is to find the balance and honest loyalty between a friendship and our wildest dreams. True friendship is everlasting and some say dreams are fleeting.

Acting and Life with Andy Arias

What is love?

This is a poem that I am writing to my future better half:


I feel you near me. 
With each passing moment of the day your face becomes more clear to me. 
I  feel your warm breath upon my neck.
 And when you touch me I am yours completely.
Your invisible power compels me.
If I had just one wish it would be your gentle kiss on my sweet  restless lips!!!
I want to swim for days in the sweet pools of your deep blue eyes let me drown in their endlessness..
I must remember that you are coming for me and I will wait patiently, I will gently anticipate the sweet cress of belonging to you.




Lately I've been having this over whelming feeling of loss. this has been my first blog in a while many of you know that I've been blogging for but haven't put a blog out recently. It's funny I've been dating a lot lately and I've been finding pieces of the man I want in all of these different persona. So I have choices I could settle for a guy that will give me one of the things that I want and neglect the others or I can wait for someone to encompass all the aspects that I admire in the man. But how do I crunch  this longing I have inside. if I I still like and let them go and how do I get them back? How do you tell the person that you've let go/freed to come back to you and give it another chance to believe in you and more importantly believe in two.


So do I wait? I've always heard that patience is a virtue well sometimes I want to say fuck patience. Who will fill that need my heart needs now? If the man that the Creator has in store for me is out there please let him be manifested right before my very eyes. Leave the pretense at the door the bullshit on the floor Let us take our blindfolds off and danced together for ever more. these words might sound idiotically romantic but I am a true believer that we create the truth within our hearts and what's in my mind that this man is near me now. Shall I have them come and find me let me go and seek him, let us find each other and find a different freedom. I am sick to death of the games we play the cadges we put on our hearts in order to save the pride we cherish but yet we sit alone embarrassed. I'd rather throw it all away for some simple loving words for the truth that lies within our hearts.


I know it sounds like a prayer of some kind. But I am nothing more than a vessel of the spirit. 
 I hope this all makes sense to you and if it doesn't get a clue the heart is a gift not to be hoarded, something to share then be rewarded.